Hey!!!!!!!!! Iam BaCk

I know it’s been a long time since my last post. Things have changed since I started my blogspot. I first started my blogspot as an outlet to get me through a major life transition. At the time, I was living in a new city with no friends or family and in the process of closing a chapter in my love life.

During my hiatus so much became clearer to me, which I must credit my clarity to my relationship with the love in my life. I realized the things I used to stress about shouldn’t have even held that much weight in my life. I have come to two major determinations over the past year:

1. Every single thing that happens happens for a reason and in its own time. So many times we go on these long searches trying to find understanding that we are not supposed to understand at that time or we try to figure out why “good” things are happening all around you except for you.
A few months ago I experienced people changing around me. The people either stopped talking to me or I am getting closer to them. I sat up in my apartment for 2 whole days trying to figure out why those who stop talking to me stopped. I beat my brains out trying to figure out what I did wrong or what I could have done differently to change the outcome of the relationship, when in actuality there was NOTHING that could have been done differently to change the outcome. I spent so much time trying to figure it out; I didn’t take time to focus on the blessing in it all.
Sometimes God remove people, places, and/or things out of your life to make room for the persons he is trying to bless you with. At the time when it was happening I couldn’t see it or understand it, it wasn’t until I starting getting closer to people and other things started to happen that I realized I had to get rid of the old to receive the new.

2. I REFUSE to allow anything or anyone to be the root of my unhappiness. If I am going to be unhappy it will be because I want to be. To many times I allowed people around me to alter my mood and effect my emotions. Yes I still do get upset about some things, however, I vent and let go. I don’t have time holding grudges or long-term anger, because in the process to reach this place I realized that forgiveness is not a gift for other people, it’s a gift for me. Forgiveness gives you place of peace that no one can alter.

I am so excited about my new attitude and my new experiences to share with you all. I feel so much happier in every aspect of life and I look forward to what 2009 has to bring for me.